Aloha

Darren and I just returned from a week long trip to Maui. We left the boys at home with both our Mom's. It was hard to leave them behind, but it was needed. Too often couples go through a tough time when their kids leave for college. It seems too easy to become consumed with rearing & raising your children and too east to set aside the marital relationship. Add this to recovery and you've got a recipe for disaster if you're not careful. It was great to sit & think about the past 18 months and what it means. It was awesome to openly begin discussing what we thought and felt about where life had taken us and where we thought it was currently taking us.

During the trip we played in little waves, walked on the beach, did a tiny hike, went on a 4 wheeler (2 person buggy style) tour, walked a lot, spent an afternoon (5 hours) at a rented cabana & ordered poolside food & drink service, ordered room service, saw three movies (2 in room), saw Cirque Polynesia, watched Ulalena, went for a late night swim, and just enjoyed the lanai life (sunsets, sunrises, and waves crashing).

It was a great time, but it was so good to get hugs & love from our boys when we returned.

I'm sharing some pictures and I hope you enjoy!

One thing that I realized during this trip was that I need to be very conscientious of my feelings of jealousy. I really had a hard time watching people frolic and play. I wish I could run the course at our hotel. I wish I could have played more in the ocean with Darren. I wish I could have done the zipline. I wish I walked with more fluidity. I wish my eating was faster & smoother. I am however not letting any particular food out of reach. I had some fantastic food and went to two awesome shows. What good memories that I have. I'm just more determined to work harder so when we go back on vacation with the boys, it'll be easier than it was. I am determined to be better. I refuse to accept defeat.

Please keep praying for me, I've noticed that the pain I normally have in my arms & legs at bedtime were nonexistent in Hawaii, but returned full force now that I'm home and in a colder climate.

Thanks again Grandma Lani & Grandma Luann. Thank you Lord for getting me to this point!