tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-85637723604451519192024-03-13T00:43:45.728-08:00JourneyThis blog is designed to share my journey of recovery with friends and family. Hopefully it will be informative and inspirational. Before anything I want to demonstrate God's amazing power to heal and restore as He has performed in my life.Jessica Busshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12503542639546243517noreply@blogger.comBlogger172125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8563772360445151919.post-16029906980043964772018-02-25T07:23:00.004-09:002018-02-25T07:23:59.227-09:002920<div style="color: #454545; font-family: ".SF UI Text"; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal;">
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<span style="font-family: ".SFUIText"; font-size: 17pt;">Today marks 8 years (2920 days) since the surgery that radically changed the course of my life. As I sit in the dark of my bedroom writing this, before my house awakes, I can’t help but be mindful of what today means. Through the last 8 years it has meant different things for me, but this year feels like its one of reflection. I remember the hours, days & weeks after surgery seemed to move slower than frozen molasses. Now it’s as if the days are on hyperdrive. I had goals I had set for myself that have gone by the wayside and yet things I never imagined doing happened. I’ve decided I need to revisit my list of goals and decide what’s still meaningful and get on it!!!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: ".SFUIText"; font-size: 17pt;">Not only am I reflective but I’m still so very THANKFUL! So many others dropped everything to be by my side or to help care for my babies. I can never say Thank You enough. I am so grateful!!!! Many others held me in prayers & well wishes. I received cards, balloons, and lots of messages of love, encouragement, and support. Thank you!!!! It was & still is overwhelming to think of it all. I am so very Thankful to have had such an incredible cheering section then & in the days, weeks, months & years that followed.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: ".SFUIText"; font-size: 17pt;">I wish I could update you and say that I am now at 100%, but I’m not. I am not sure that’s my story and most days I am okay with that. I am my biggest stumbling block!!! The deficits I still have are still real... yet I think if I am honest with myself, my perception of some of them is much worse than they truly are. I’m still learning that people don’t care about them as much as I do. I’m not saying people around me don’t care... it’s they aren’t bothered by them, they care for me regardless. I just have to get this idea & my fears about them under control & be willing to dance outside the boundaries occasionally. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: ".SFUIText"; font-size: 17pt;">It’s really hard to believe it’s been 8 years! Time flies when your busy living life!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: ".SFUIText"; font-size: 17pt;">Thank you for being a part of my journey! I’m not done yet. Be Blessed.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: ".SFUIText"; font-size: 17pt;">Last night at bedtime I asked a few of my friends & family to especially pray for Kadin as I was particularly worried about him. To them I say : Thank you so much for all the prayers last night. We stayed out of the ER. Kadin woke up at 9:00 pm struggling to breathe, in his half sleep state convincing him he just needed to relax & take a couple of deep breaths was a challenge. Finally, he realized he had to go to the bathroom & after that he finally woke up enough that his breathing returned to normal. It was about a hour to go before we could do another breathing treatment, so I talked him through the importance of relaxing, deep breathing & not getting too worked up. I’ve been sleeping is his room on the floor since Sunday so he knows I am always near. He drifted back off to sleep moments later with a cold cloth on his head to help with his low grade fever. I laid in my makeshift bed, preparing myself for the next few hours, praying God would intervene & give Kadin restful sleep. Another half hour of snoring occurred and again he sat up in a panic, tears streamed down his red hot cheeks and his eyes screamed fear. I gently kneeled before him & spoke in a calm voice (unlike me in a child medical situation- I am usually quite flustered). I reminded him again to relax & take in deep breaths & that I was there with him. A few seconds (felt like minutes) he rallied & calmed himself down. He blew his nose, had a drink of water & asked for another cool cloth. When I brought it back to him, he still looked scared... I asked if he wanted to pray, he said yes. So we prayed that God would come along side him, help him to rest, to be with him if he had another scary moment, to comfort his tired, weary, scared heart. And he drifted back off to sleep. I fully expected him to wake up a half hour later & needing to do another breathing treatment but he didn’t. He woke up a few times throughout the night & without me, he didn’t allow himself to get worked up but to calm down & take a couple of deep breaths. Its now 6 am and I am writing this and he didn’t have a breathing treatment at all since the initial one before bed. Are we out of the woods yet? No way! I’ve plans to call & visit the Doctor’s office today & we will see what they say. I’m confident he has the flu (starting day 3) just like Darren (starting day 7). I’m thankful for some rest & I’m praying for continued healing for Kadin & Darren & that Zach and I don’t get it.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: ".SFUIText"; font-size: 17pt;">In fact Kadin just woke up (6:30 - eek) and gave me a thumbs up! He’s now back laying in bed resting. Thank you again for your prayers. Keep them coming!!</span></div>
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Jessica Busshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12503542639546243517noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8563772360445151919.post-27620617189520454242017-12-07T18:52:00.003-09:002017-12-07T18:52:52.611-09:00Waiting and Patience<div style="color: #454545; font-family: ".SF UI Text"; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal;">
<span style="font-family: ".SFUIText"; font-size: 17pt;">Many of us have sat in a hospital waiting area for a family member or a friend. Maybe it’s for a joyus occasion like the arrival of a new baby. Maybe it’s for an elected procedure, necessary or not, you still choose to wait. Maybe it’s under the context of an emergency. I’ve done all but the last. I was waiting for the emergency operation, but I was the one being operated on. I often think about this day, those that led up to it and those many that followed. I would certainly say my family & friends had more angst about my craniotomy than I did. I have a picture taken right before surgery and I look dazed. Maybe it was due to the medications that were pumped through my body to best prepare me for the major surgery I was facing, maybe it spoke to just how sick I was. I honestly don’t remember that day at all. I remember in great detail the day before until I had my first Grand Mal Seizure and then it all goes blank until I was coming to after surgery. I have snapshot moments over the next day or two after surgery but some major gaps. Overall they aren’t easy to deal with. I don’t ruminate on them long because I remember the tough emotions I was experiencing. Because of all the medications I was on following surgery, I am not sure how accurate my memories are though. At times these drugged altered memories have proven to be both frustrating and funny. I so desperately wish that I had pictures to document those first days. I hear I was a mess. I was very colorful with large bruises up and down my arms, one side of my face was turned down as if I’d had a stroke, my face was swollen, I drooled because I could not swallow and I had many pieces of medical equipment attached to me to keep me alive. I’m sure my hair was matted and filled with dried blood flakes too. Thankfully they didn’t have to shave my head, although Darren tells me that I tried to give permission for it. He was smarter than me, as in many cases, and informed me that my hair would remain intact. I was so glad of this later on when I was finally able to look in a mirror and glance into a face I certainly didn’t recognize. Pictures from that time in ICU are hard to look at, yes, its incredibly sad, but I don’t look like me. My eyes are distant, glazed & wonky. I felt like a Monster. Thankfully, I had some incredible Nurses during my hospitalization and one night one nurse Joe decided I needed some freshening up. He had washed my hair days before and had given me a unique hairstyle, Princess Leia buns, but he decided I needed another grooming session. On that special makeover night, Shari, Mom #2, was staying the night with me and she had a big hand in this pampering session with Joe. Because I wasn’t very ambulatory yet they made a makeshift ICU hair washing station. How I envisioned my bed & myself is probably far from what it actually happened. My hospital bed was raised high into the air and the end that my head was at was tipped down toward a trash can that had been lined with trash bags to catch the water that was being used to wash my hair. It was incredible to finally have my hair cleaned, brushed and put into Joe’s now famous Princess Leia buns. I felt like a new women! What a treat that truly helped to restore part of me that had been so broken. During my hospitalization and in the months after there were many times that I felt more like a monster than a person. This act of service made me feel special & valued. I will never forget all the compliments on my hairdo. It actually became my hairdo of choice while hospitalized because it allowed my hair to be up and away from the staples in the back of my head. It was especially helpful when I moved into Rehab three weeks after I entered the hospital for my brain surgery. Each step of recovery seemed to take forever. My physical therapist LeeAnne had explained to me many times that my recovery would ebb and flow. I would take two steps forward and one step back. In my ICU room, my husband Darren, drew a progression picture on my dry eraser board. He had a little car that moved toward a goal line. As I accomplished new tasks or skills the car would move forward, sometimes it stayed stationary as some skills or tasks seemed to take forever. The first skill I remember working on was relearning my center of gravity. When I finally regained the ability to move myself in bed, when the nurses no longer had to come adjust me in bed, I would try to sit up and my therapist would tell me that I was leaning far to the right and that I needed to correct myself to center. A mirror was put in front of me and my family was instructed to cue me to correct my posture when it was off. Over the six weeks I was hospitalized, she explained to me many times that my brain was lying to me and it was my job to correct it. As I understand it, your brain has the ability to regenerate neural pathways that have been broken or injured. After I relearned my center of gravity it was time to get moving. Lying in the hospital bed had been devastating to my muscle tone. When I entered the hospital before surgery I still some pregnancy weight on but I began to melt away, losing over thirty pounds in just over a week and a half. I had become just a shell of myself. Due to my lack of muscle tone, spread abdominal muscles from just being pregnant, and a giant lack of muscle coordination I had to start slowly. LeeAnne’s first goal was to get me to sit in a chair. She was armed with a gait belt and a lift team to get me transferred the few steps from my bed into a recliner chair in my room. I stayed there for over four hours. It was hard work for sure, but it was the start of something big. I remember LeeAnne also had me working on getting comfortable sitting on the edge of my hospital bed. This sounds like a simple move, but for me, it wasn’t. My brain was fuzzy and dizzy and I’d often feel like I would tumble from the bed onto the cold floor below. After numerous trials, I told her that I was comfortable with this and she decided that it was time to get me up and working on standing & my first steps. The hard work was only beginning. I remember having an entourage every time I headed out to walk. LeeAnne would be in front of me, ready to catch me at any moment. Someone would also follow me with a wheelchair, my oxygen, and my IV pole. The first time I only managed to walk a few inches. The second time I pushed even further and went 20 feet. Then it was 70 feet. LeeAnne told me that soon I’d be walking around the nurses stations in ICU. I think I audibly laughed as the idea of that seemed impossible to me. Another day passed and I did it. To challenge me further, she tied weights to my ankles. I felt like I had cement boots on. Even before I started down the path to relearning to walk, I was almost derailed completely from pain. Every part of recovery was slow and it seemed to take forever, especially swallowing. About a week and a half into my stay in the ICU, in an extreme state of sleep deprivation, I had actually managed to fall asleep and had an incredibly realistic feeling dream. I dreamt that I had two nasogastric tubes, one in either side of my nose. During my dream I came to the conclusion the extra tube needed to be removed so I started to do that. Unfortunately, I woke up in a groggy state doing just that, I was pulling out my only nasogastric tube. I began to become upset which woke up my sister Jaime who was sleeping in the recliner chair next to my bed. This tube had been responsible for delivering all my food & most of my medications to me in the days following surgery. By the time I had pulled the tube mostly out, I finally was awake enough to realize what I’d just done. I was devastated and immediately overwhelmed. I remember having the nasogastric tube placed and the thought of enduring it again was terrifying. I remember how the Nurses had tried a few times to place it in ICU, but were unable and so I was sent to Radiology for them to place it. In my drugged & sleep deprived stupor, I thought that the Radiologist had sat on my chest and forced the tube down my nose & throat into my stomach. It was so painful and scary. I told my sister Jaime that the procedure was worse than childbirth. Little did I know what was to come. Because I had removed the nasogastric tube and I still was unable to swallow discussions began about a more permanent solution. A peg tube was suggested and my anxiety and fear became crippling. I was convinced that I was dying and this was the last resort to buy me a little more time. You see my only experience with a feeding tube were when my Grandma Lorraine was fighting Cancer when I was 15. She had to have a feeding tube and I remember she declined rapidly after that. I remember learning how to feed her and now it looked like that was becoming my reality. I was convinced that a feeding tube was the final nail in my coffin. The Doctors, Nurses and my family pled with me and guaranteed that I was getting better and this peg tube would help me as I continued to recover. After much conversation, I agreed to allow the peg tube to be placed. The next day, two Gastroenterologist Surgeons and their Nurses came into my ICU room to perform the procedure. I was given some medication to make me relax and go into a dozed state. I remember most of the procedure and how they advanced things down my throat and then popped up through my abdomen. I remember well the intense pain I had following the procedure when the feel good meds wore off. It was the most excruciating pain I’d every experienced. On a pain scale of 1-10, it was a 20. My Mom and Darren watched helplessly as I cried out in pain. The pain meds I was to receive would wear off 15 minutes before the next dose was set to be given. My Mom kept asking the Nurse what they could do for me. It had been explained to me that recovery from a peg tube wouldn’t be bad. However, I had three things against me, my age, my abs were still separated from just being pregnant, and I developed chronic hiccups that we couldn’t find a cause of, so my initial recovery was far from easy. Finally my nurse called my primary ICU doctor and he gave permission for a pain pump to accompany the fentanyl patch I had for pain. Finally, I had relief from the constant pain. Even recovery from my craniotomy wasn’t as bad as this. The day after the peg tube procedure LeeAnne walked into my room, ready to get back to work. Instead of a can do attitude she was met with a hot mess. I still hurt badly from surgery and it felt weird moving with this new foreign appendage. I was so worried I would fall or make some sort of movement and accidentally rip it out. The whole thought of that, the pain it would cause, and the fear of having to go through the procedure again was crippling. LeeAnne listened and tried to reassure me that it would be fine and that she wouldn’t let anything happen to me. I was just so scared. After many attempts trying to convince me to get up and moving and me trying desperately to talk her out of it, she pulled out ‘the talk.’ I’m not sure if she has to use this talk with each one of her patients or if this one was handcrafted just for me. She looked at me and said something to the effect of put on your big girl panties and lets go, or I’m gone. She wasn’t messing around. She was done with the little dance we were doing and I had to decide to get going or she was going to get going. I knew I needed her to help me get better and I was afraid she wouldn’t come back and help me, so I figuratively pulled on my big girl panties (I was still modeling the latest hospital gown style) and got going. I didn’t slow down either. For the rest of my time in the hospital (about more 4 weeks), I pushed myself. Even when I was tired, which was all the time (I got maybe 4 hours of sleep at night), was dealing with Pneumonia (I developed in the hospital), even after heartbreak when my initial release date came and went, I worked hard. It didn’t come easy or fast, it took patience, hard work, determination and lots of prayers. Thank you again & again for those of you who were praying for me & cheering me on, what a difference it made! </span></div>
Jessica Busshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12503542639546243517noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8563772360445151919.post-88702402453603920812017-11-19T19:15:00.001-09:002017-11-19T19:15:50.891-09:00VOICE<div style="color: #454545; font-family: ".SF UI Text"; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal;">
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<span style="font-family: ".SFUIText"; font-size: 17pt;">Its one of the first things people notice when they meet you. Other than your appearance, it allows them to begin to judge/evaluate/inspect/critic you. Other cues allow us to determine additional information about that person, but we mostly form our opinions/thoughts/conclusion about this person before many conversations are even had. I’d assume thats human nature. When we first meet someone with an accent, we assume they are from a foreign country. Someone who has a cold often has a particular sound too. However there are those rare occurrences where we can’t quite place the sound we are hearing. I assume thats where I fall. Before my brain tumor, I didn’t make much fuss about my voice. I used it in various venues- I sang at Church, I worked in customer service, and as a Mother of a toddler, I constantly had opportunities to talk, sing, correct & teach my son. I also was/am quite social so talking was just what I did/do. I am still timid about my voice when I meet new people & other times I’m sometimes lazy about my speech with those I’m familiar with. You see after my brain tumor, I was unable to speak. I was capable of making sounds but what came out was sluggish garble. I was diagnosed with aphasia. Aphasia is defined by Dictionary.com as “the loss of a previously held ability to speak or understand spoken or written language, due to disease or injury of the brain.” I remember coming to after surgery and within moments being filled with panic and dread. I remember trying to tell the nurses I couldn’t swallow but when I spoke I sounded much like a zombie groaning. I remember someone saying that it must be swelling that was causing my trouble swallowing & difficulty speaking. Nope & nope. I had just had a brain tumor peeled off my brain stem and apparently some damage had been done. Thankfully, I had a default I knew could help me communicate as I could tell from conversations around me that my Doctors & Nurses weren’t just trying to evaluate my speech, but also my ability to comprehend. I began to use simple sign language which I think both impressed & overwhelmed them at the same time. They knew I was still in there, but they had no one to translate. Finally, they got my sister Jaime and she picked pieces of what I was saying from a language we had briefly learned (the alphabet) in our childhood. Shortly after this they gave me some paper and pen to use for communication. Wow! I still have these initial writings and those that followed in the days and weeks I was hospitalized. They are hard to look at but they provide a clear outlook into the chaos and disorganization my brain was enduring following brain surgery. In those first few hours after surgery it was also discovered that I couldn’t move my body either. Shortly after surgery, I earned the diagnosis of ataxia and apraxia which defined by Dictionary.com suggests my inability to move also had to do with loss, ‘loss of coordination’ in my muscles & the ability to ‘perform purposeful movement.’ To sum it up, I was a hot mess... sad thing was these diagnoses didn’t cover all the deficits I had to deal with. I also couldn’t swallow, had double vision (strabismus), didn’t recognize my center of gravity, and then there was my paralyzed vocal chord. Every one of these things presented its own challenges & when added to the picture of healing from brain surgery, made the outlook seem impossible. Many hurdles also developed along the way: pneumonia, the giant DVT (blood clot) that formed (due to medical error) from the bend in my elbow up to my shoulder, orthostatic hypotension (blood pressure mystery), and chronic hiccups just to name a few. I had a giant battle in front of me. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: ".SFUIText"; font-size: 17pt;">Thankfully by God’s grace, I have travelled so far from that scary time. Some progress was quick while other was painfully slow. I spent hours doing Occupational, Speech & Physical Therapy. I was surrounded by incredible family, therapists, Doctors & Nurses that also deserve credit for my recovery. I know I am beyond blessed & I give the glory to God for restoring me. Do I still have difficulties & deficits? I do and i’ve come to realize I might always. Some days accepting that is doable while other days the thought is defeating. So why am I thinking about this experience now? It isn’t a special day or anything. Last week I was in the Dentist office getting some work done and when I returned upfront to pay & checkout, one of the ladies commented on my voice. Instead of saying something I feared, she told me she liked my voice because it reminded her of one of her children’s friends and she really liked this child. I quickly commented well this isn’t my real voice. Another gal at the front desk joined the conversation and when I said that, they both looked at me perplexed. So I told them the brief version of what had happened. They both looked at me shocked. So i finished my story as I always do, giving God the glory for it all and commentating on how blessed I am. This experience has not been easy but its been blessed. What a perfect time of year for this? Be mindful and thankful.</span></div>
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Jessica Busshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12503542639546243517noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8563772360445151919.post-38553020402146779672017-04-10T14:49:00.000-08:002017-04-10T14:49:37.325-08:00Gertrude AttacksToo bad it's past April Fools Day - I was going to post a picture on Facebook introducing my new baby that we were welcoming on Wednesday (and tag my blog that told about the gallstone) to see if people just read the brief comment with the picture & said Congrats on the new baby or if they read the attached blog & discovered it wasn't a baby I had in my ultrasound picture. Wonder how fast talk of a baby would spread? Guess that's the social psychologist side of me... Dr. Ponsford 😊<br />
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So Tuesday of this past week, I developed a very sharp pain in my back right below my shoulder blade. I figured I was standing wrong or had pulled something so I brushed it off, telling myself I'd stretch later. A few hours later the pain continued and as a sat waiting to pick the boys up from school, I struggled to get comfortable. Each position I shifted into provided only moments of relief. I tried to push the pain & discomfort out of my mind, but no luck. By bedtime I was so achy that I had camped myself on my heating pad, hoping for some relief. After putting the boys to bed I got ready for bed & noticed the pain shifted forward to under my ribs. This of course concerned me & I took my blood pressure... it read 179/105 and I became even more concerned. I had Darren call my Mom to sit with the boys while I headed to talk to Zach as I knew he was still awake & would be scared if he saw his parents leave without telling him why. I explained to Zach what was happening & that I was heading to the ER to get checked out. We hugged & prayed and then I headed out. I arrived at the ER and because of my chest & back pain they got me right in. I was instantly hooked up to an EKG machine. Thankfully results were fine. Over the next hour labs were run & meds for pain & nausea were given. The Doctor suspected gallstones and said I should follow up with my primary Doctor. I returned home feeling a bit better but wondering. I stayed home from work the next day to rest & felt bloated & full. I hardly ate as I didn't really have an appetite. The pain hadn't returned, but had morphed into a tender spot under my rib & shoulder blade. That evening I was nauseous & had a slight fever. It was a terrible nite without rest. I contacted work & my boss insisted I come in & have one of fantastic ultrasound techs scan me in between patients to see if I had a gallstone/s. So I did. Within moments of beginning the scan, I had my answer, a decent size gallstone. I lovingly named her Gertrude 😂 I had previously called my Doctor to make an appointment & she squeezed me in for the afternoon. I took my ultrasound pictures to my Doctor & she asked if I had a preference for a surgeon. I had already done my homework & asked my sister Wendy who she recommended & then found out who took my insurance so I was ready with an answer in case she asked. She excused herself & called the Surgeon directly. Upon explaining my situation, my now Surgeon made room in her schedule for a meeting & surgery too. As I write this, I'm sitting in Pre Op Registration... Surgery is set for Wednesday at one, prayers are always appreciated.<br />
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Blessings!Jessica Busshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12503542639546243517noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8563772360445151919.post-87471641425963908832017-03-27T22:12:00.000-08:002017-03-27T22:12:01.069-08:00Mud & spit Jesus Heals a Man Born Blind<br />
9 As he went along, he saw a man blind from birth. 2 His disciples asked him, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?”<br />
3 “Neither this man nor his parents sinned,”said Jesus, “but this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him. 4 As long as it is day, we must do the works of him who sent me. Night is coming, when no one can work. 5 While I am in the world, I am the light of the world.”<br />
6 After saying this, he spit on the ground, made some mud with the saliva, and put it on the man’s eyes. 7 “Go,” he told him, “wash in the Pool of Siloam” (this word means “Sent”). So the man went and washed, and came home seeing.<br />
8 His neighbors and those who had formerly seen him begging asked, “Isn’t this the same man who used to sit and beg?” 9 Some claimed that he was.<br />
Others said, “No, he only looks like him.”<br />
But he himself insisted, “I am the man.”<br />
10 “How then were your eyes opened?” they asked.<br />
11 He replied, “The man they call Jesus made some mud and put it on my eyes. He told me to go to Siloam and wash. So I went and washed, and then I could see.”<br />
12 “Where is this man?” they asked him.<br />
“I don’t know,” he said.<br />
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13 They brought to the Pharisees the man who had been blind. 14 Now the day on which Jesus had made the mud and opened the man’s eyes was a Sabbath. 15 Therefore the Pharisees also asked him how he had received his sight. “He put mud on my eyes,” the man replied, “and I washed, and now I see.”<br />
16 Some of the Pharisees said, “This man is not from God, for he does not keep the Sabbath.”<br />
But others asked, “How can a sinner perform such signs?” So they were divided.<br />
17 Then they turned again to the blind man, “What have you to say about him? It was your eyes he opened.”<br />
The man replied, “He is a prophet.”<br />
18 They still did not believe that he had been blind and had received his sight until they sent for the man’s parents. 19 “Is this your son?” they asked. “Is this the one you say was born blind? How is it that now he can see?”<br />
20 “We know he is our son,” the parents answered, “and we know he was born blind.21 But how he can see now, or who opened his eyes, we don’t know. Ask him. He is of age; he will speak for himself.” 22 His parents said this because they were afraid of the Jewish leaders, who already had decided that anyone who acknowledged that Jesus was the Messiah would be put out of the synagogue.23 That was why his parents said, “He is of age; ask him.”<br />
24 A second time they summoned the man who had been blind. “Give glory to God by telling the truth,” they said. “We know this man is a sinner.”<br />
25 He replied, “Whether he is a sinner or not, I don’t know. One thing I do know. I was blind but now I see!”<br />
26 Then they asked him, “What did he do to you? How did he open your eyes?”<br />
27 He answered, “I have told you already and you did not listen. Why do you want to hear it again? Do you want to become his disciples too?”<br />
28 Then they hurled insults at him and said, “You are this fellow’s disciple! We are disciples of Moses! 29 We know that God spoke to Moses, but as for this fellow, we don’t even know where he comes from.”<br />
30 The man answered, “Now that is remarkable! You don’t know where he comes from, yet he opened my eyes. 31 We know that God does not listen to sinners. He listens to the godly person who does his will. 32 Nobody has ever heard of opening the eyes of a man born blind.33 If this man were not from God, he could do nothing.”<br />
34 To this they replied, “You were steeped in sin at birth; how dare you lecture us!” And they threw him out.<br />
Spiritual Blindness<br />
35 Jesus heard that they had thrown him out, and when he found him, he said, “Do you believe in the Son of Man?”<br />
36 “Who is he, sir?” the man asked. “Tell me so that I may believe in him.”<br />
37 Jesus said, “You have now seen him; in fact, he is the one speaking with you.”<br />
38 Then the man said, “Lord, I believe,” and he worshiped him.<br />
39 Jesus said,[a] “For judgment I have come into this world, so that the blind will see and those who see will become blind.”<br />
40 Some Pharisees who were with him heard him say this and asked, “What? Are we blind too?”<br />
41 Jesus said, “If you were blind, you would not be guilty of sin; but now that you claim you can see, your guilt remains.<br />
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This past Sunday, my Pastor shared with us this scripture and it really made an impression. I have spent more time in John than any book in the Bible, but I was refreshed by what he had to offer. Thank you Pastor Andy! He titled his sermon Mud, spit & fears. He introduced us to a man named Jean Vanier who believes:<br />
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“The weak teach the strong to accept and integrate the weakness and brokenness of their own lives.”<br />
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Vanier’s explains that people 'really blossom when they are welcomed as they are, with their gifts and their weaknesses together'... what a beautiful thought! Instead of getting hung up on our differences, we embrace them & accept them for what they contribute. Imagine what a wonderful world that'd be.<br />
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For someone whose struggled to understand how to accept myself & to accept how others welcome me has been/is still a challenge. I still see myself broken. However, by Gods grace, I've never spent too much time allowing myself to wallow in that. I've tried to acknowledge Gods amazing presence in each detail of it. Have I always done this? Or done it well? Certainly not.. I fail often.<br />
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In the scripture above it talks about Jesus healing the blind man. As Pastor Andy explained, blindness was often blamed on the sin of the person afflicted. Jesus squashed that idea and explained that he wasn't blind because of his or his parents sin, but because it allowed God to be revealed through the work of Jesus. Pastor Andy also shared the issue of fear and how that played a role in this story. Fear prevented those who knew of this miracle to proclaim it. I know there are a number of times I have stayed silent instead of speaking up. Throughout my brain tumor, I've been aware of Gods hand on me and I only hope I've been fearless talking about my miracle. <br />
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May we all be fearless & bold when it come to Gods handiwork. May we see the beauty in each other & look for the gifts we each have.<br />
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Favorite song that encourages me on this matter is Fearless by Jasmine Murray ...<br />
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Jessica Busshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12503542639546243517noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8563772360445151919.post-69225587586110885672017-02-28T21:48:00.000-09:002017-02-28T21:48:12.811-09:00RareToday is Rare Disease Day and Brain Tumors are considered just that! Wow! Rare! Hmmm... What do I think about that and the fact I got one??? Over the last seven years, I have had a lot of time to ponder the whys? I never allowed myself to wallow in the 'poor me' talk very long. Instead, I chose to focus on the why nots? I accepted the facts I couldn't change. I didn't argue with the statistics, I took Dory's advice & kept swimming.<br />
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So what about those why nots? During my first few months of recovery, I heard from family, friends, Doctors, Nurses, Therapists and strangers... asking - but why you? I quickly got sick of hearing those questions and began responding with why not me?<br />
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Guess what? I still don't have an answer to that question either! It does however requires me to fully evaluate my circumstance, even today, and forces me to make a choice, be thankful or not? I'd like to say I always choose Thankfulness, but I still find it tough sometimes to deal with my lingering deficits. It's hard to admit your shortcomings, real or unreal. Things I see as roadblocks may seem trivial or silly to others, but to me they still matter. I question so much of how this situation changed me, hoping it's mostly for the better, but recognizing some is not. I know I'm speaking in generalities, but I'm still not comfortable airing all my insecurities.<br />
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When all is said & done, if I've know you for a month or for years, I hope I have come across as someone who is Thankful that I have had this brain tumor experience. I will never have the 'reason' that this happened, but throughout it all, I've been blessed more than I can say and I'm grateful for that. I've discovered many truths throughout this. Truths about God, people, love, healing, possibility and about myself. I'm making lemonade from these lemons. I'm turning my mess into my message. I've been blessed by so many, I hope I've returned the favor & continue to do so.<br />
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So on this Rare Diseases Day, I'm going to embrace the fact I'm RARE and be glad with that.<br />
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Be BlessedJessica Busshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12503542639546243517noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8563772360445151919.post-86496429574028129002016-12-02T23:14:00.001-09:002016-12-02T23:14:52.028-09:00WaterWater is defined by Dictionary.com as a "transparent, odorless, tasteless liquid." When you think of water, what sort of thoughts come to mind???<br />
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Within the last week, it has become a blessing. Let me explain further... I got stomach flu over Thanksgiving break and it was no fun! Even water was my enemy. Hours ticked by and as they did, I grew desperately thirsty. I longed for small sips of cool and refreshing water. My lips began to crack and my tongue was dry and raw. My mind was consumed with my thirst. After hours had passed, I started with small sips and quickly moved to big gulps. My mistake indeed, my body retaliated greatly. Again, I started the waiting game, hoping I would feel better soon. Another few hours passed and I again tried small sips, this time being more mindful of how quickly I was drinking the water. I stayed with small sips for a few hours before I tried bigger sips. About 24 hours after it all started, I was finally able to hold some water down. I can't just describe it as water. To me, it was cool and crisp, it even had a sweet hint to it. Okay, okay... am I crazy???<br />
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This isn't the first time I have experienced this. Over six and a half years ago when I was lying in the ICU recovering from brain surgery, I became severely dehydrated. I remember desperately trying to swallow so I could finally have something to drink. I was overwhelmed with frustration, my body wasn't working, and no one could understand me. Nurses gave me oral swabs to add some moisture to my mouth until they could determine if I would gain back my swallowing ability or if they'd have to declare me NPO status and get a NG tube placed. I'm not sure I will ever be able to forget the way my mouth felt. My lips were cracked & no matter how many times I tried to lick them, I never found relief. My tongue was thick and rough as if it were covered in sand paper. It felt swollen and fat, although I'm not sure it was. At this time, my face was asymmetrical, I was black & blue and I had the crazy drugged look....we won't even mention my hair or my over active salvation glands. I was a mess! Even after I had the NG tube then the PEG tube, I always had a longing for a cool drink of water. On the PEG tube, I was able to give myself free water with my liquid food to keep me hydrated. When I was finally able to swallow, I had to start with a tiny amount (teaspoon) of thickened liquid. I then worked up to other beverages that provided me other stimulus to help aide me in swallowing. Liquids with flavor, temperature (hot/cold), and texture were easier than water. Without fail, 99% of the time, I'd choke on water. About 9 months after I returned home, I remember waking up in the middle of the night. I stood at my bathroom sink, thinking about water. Usually, I would just put my mouth to the faucet & I'd let the cool water wash over my tongue, being careful not to let any stay in my mouth. On this particular night, I decided to be a little daring. I put a little water into a cup and tried to take a small sip. I remember how hard I was concentrating. I remember the cool water as it sloshed in my mouth. I was mindful of where it was in my mouth. I knew if I tried to swallow it without being ready, I would most certainly choke. Instead, I stood there with my head slightly faced down and I really enveloped the flavor of the water. The longer it stayed in my mouth, the warmer it got. It was sweet in flavor and it felt so refreshing. I closed my eyes and relaxed my throat. I visualized the water and hoped it would go down. I swallowed. I waited a few seconds, expecting a coughing fit. Minutes passed and I was fine. I tried again and again. That first night, I managed to swallow water 5 times before I aspirated. VICTORY!!! I was filled with emotions. I was happy, overjoyed, hopeful, nervous, scared, apprehensive & thankful. It took many more months & years to be able to drink a glass of water with ease. Actually, if I'm honest, I still am more cognizant when I am drinking water. I probably will always be. I just so very thankful I am able to swallow again.<br />
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Be Blessed.Jessica Busshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12503542639546243517noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8563772360445151919.post-81077061348607076582016-10-11T03:56:00.002-08:002016-10-11T03:56:34.061-08:00SeasonsHappy Fall!<br />
This is my favorite time of year. It's a great reminder of the changing seasons. The leaves turn to fantastic shades of yellow, orange, red, maroon. Everything has a slight frost on it in the mornings. The kids head back to school. You have to dig out coats, boots, gloves & hats. The season has certainly changed and before we know it, there will be snow. Gasp!!!! But I've discovered their aren't just seasons in our weather, but also in life. Life is full of transitions and sometimes we are ready for it and sometimes we have to just hang on for the ride. I'm in a new season and am really enjoying it. When the boys headed back to school this fall, I longed for something to do. I've toyed with the idea of going back to school, volunteering long term somewhere, getting a job, and much more, but I didn't know what I really wanted to (or felt like I could) do. My mind at times swirled with ideas and then raced with fears & anxiety. Questions galore!!! One day I sent my oldest sister a text message asking her what job often turned over at the medical office she works in? Well it started a whole discussion which only encouraged more thinking. Drat! A few weeks after our conversation, she called me out of the blue with a proposition. Her office needed someone to do some data entry for them and she wanted to know if I was interested. I didn't have to think much because they were offering work with flexibility so that I could still be available for my boys. Basically work when they are in school. Win-Win. Another answer to prayer. I'm in my second week and I'm really enjoying what I'm doing. It's been such an encouragement to my spirit. It's begun to squash some of the fears I've had about myself. A blessing for sure. Thank you Lord!<br />
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Seasons... they come and go, may you be blessed in the one you've just had, the one you're in, and the one just around the corner.<br />
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Blessings.Jessica Busshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12503542639546243517noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8563772360445151919.post-31650752083027048742016-06-26T23:39:00.000-08:002016-06-27T12:59:38.278-08:00Summer Days<br />
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It's summertime... So what is the footwear of choice? Flip flops, right? I use to have flip flops in so many different colors but I got rid of them after my surgery because I figured I'd never be able to wear them again. Well I threw some $2.50 ones in my old navy basket the other day and thought 'what's the harm?' Well, I can walk in them. I still have a death grip on the toe separator thingy but they don't fly off my foot with every step and I don't look ridiculous walking in them (an added bonus)!!!<br />
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I came upon this reading this last week and it really resonated with me! It addresses Trauma and I love that it says: "This is not a wholly negative thing. Healing from trauma can also mean finding new strength and joy. The goal of healing is not a papering-over of changes in an effort to preserve or present things as normal. It is to acknowledge and wear your new life - warts, wisdom, and all - with courage."</div>
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That is it! No matter what I have endured through this brain tumor, I've tried so hard to remain positive and focused on the blessing it was/is. I am sure that sounds trite to many or to those who've had a brain tumor too, but that is it, a blessing. I still have moments where I am uncomfortable in my new normal, but it's a reality that I need to accept. If I don't accept it, I can never fully embrace all that has happened, good and bad. Trauma is truly a reset button. It's not possible to return to the old and I'm thankful for that. I'm turning my mess into my message.</div>
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I finally got my MRI scheduled and taken... now I am just waiting for my appointment with Dr. Kralick later this month to confirm all is well. I've already got some brain treats planned for Dr. Kralick so stayed tuned to see my next brainy creation. My husband and I notice a mass in my sinuses so I am waiting to find out how to proceed with that too... oh joy!</div>
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The day after my MRI, I was sitting in my car awaiting the end of the school day when another Mommy from school came over to my window. She told me that she had left extra early hoping to catch me before I got involved in a conversation with others also waiting for the end of the school day. She wanted to give me this beautiful bracelet that her friend made. She told me that she carries them around waiting to share them with someone she thinks is "being the good in the world." She wanted to give it to me because she knew my story and she wanted to tell me how she was impressed in how I was always smiling and so positive. Even as I recall this, I'm brought to tears. What a gift! I am so touched! Here I was lost in thought about my MRI and being worried about what it'll mean and here was this wonderfully nice and thoughtful Mommy, encouraging me. I started this blog as a way to communicate with family and friends about the journey I am on. I wanted it to be raw and real and I hope it is. I wanted it to be focusing on taking the positive road and about giving God the glory for it all. Without Him, I'd be nothing! Thank you Friend for showing me love and encouragement!</div>
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Kadin and I attended the Easter fun at Church and had a fantastic time. we've heard the craft day during Advent is a blast too... now just to wait for that!<br />
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Boys got to meet their new "cousin" A and they were over the moon with her! I love watching how excited they were to hold and love on her. What good Daddies they'll be one day! <3 p=""><br />
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Okay, the time has come... are you on the edge of your seats? I did it! I actually skied. When I accepted the invitation, I did it without much thought. I heard that one of my favorite Nurses (Ellen) would be there and I jumped. As the days got closer to the big event, I didn't really think much about it. I asked my sister Jaime to come along in case I needed a swift kick in the butt or words of encouragement. I made sure I had snow gear and of course a helmet. I didn't mentally prepare myself at all. Wednesday arrived and I started to get a little nervous. I joked with Darren and Jaime that I didn't really need to go, but in the end I knew I needed to. I had made a commitment and I am just not one for not following through. Jaime and I arrived at Challenge Alaska's Girdwood Ski House at Alyeska early and waited. Soon Alaska Regional staff begin to arrive. I looked at the lesson board and was somewhat relieved that there were other past patients that would also be taking a lesson. Ellen arrived and introduced me to everyone as there has been turn over in the past 6 years I've been gone. Everyone was so nice. My instructor Dottyie came over to introduce herself. She was fabulous! Full of positive energy, encouragement and help. We headed outside to get our ski's and made our way to the magic carpet. Yes, I made a joke about how I'm Jasmine. She told me we were going to ride the magic carpet up and take the kiddie hill down. I looked at her like she were crazy because I notice there was nothing for me to hold onto as I got on the magic carpet or rode it. She showed me the hula hoop she had and talked me through how we were doing to conqueror this first feat. We did it and we skied down the kiddie hill with the hula hoop between us. She skied backward in front of me and I held onto the hula hoop for dear life. After a few runs down the hill like that she forced me to be even more adventurous. This time she'd place the hula hoop around me at hip level and she'd ski behind me. I guess it was so I could maintain more independence and decide where we should go. Just when I was starting to get that, she decided to take it up another notch and to 'encourage' me to ride the chair life up and to ski down run 3. I believe I looked at her and said, "Are you Crazy? There is no way!" One more trip down the kididie hill with me in front and we were headed to the chair lift. If I didn't say that this was terrifying, I'd be omitting something. We rode the lift up and slowly made our way down the hill. By this time, my legs were becoming fatigued and wanted to give up. I couldn't force my left leg to behave which made stopping difficult. I think I only really fell once, usually, I felt out of control and couldn't stop so I just sat down. Getting back up was hard. After run 3, I asked if we could go back to the kiddie hill because my legs hurt. Dottyie agreed to let me out of my ski's to stretch if I promised to put them back on. I did. It was a unique experience, full of an array of emotions. I remember at one point, my body relaxed and it felt good. I am glad for the opportunity and I told Dottyie if she was there next year, I'd really consider taking another lesson with her. She was the perfect mix of encouragement & push for me. I am blessed to have met her. So we will see what the future holds, I don't have any plans for skiing this year as the snow is melting away but I won't say never again. I'm proud of me and I so beyond Thankful for the opportunity.</div>
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<br /></3>Jessica Busshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12503542639546243517noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8563772360445151919.post-77183961054582268822016-03-09T16:49:00.002-09:002016-03-09T16:49:38.807-09:00New opportunities<br />
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On Monday, I was praying that God would allow me to use my brain tumor & recovery as a platform... To allow me to think this journey was useful. I walked into the house from picking the boys up at school and the phone rang. Calling was someone at Alaska Regional... I'm waiting for a call back to schedule my next MRI, so I assumed it was that. I answered the phone quickly grabbing my schedule so I could be ready to book it. On the other end was someone calling from the Rehab Unit and she was inviting me the first reunion for rehab patients. I was intrigued and then she said it'll be held at Alyeska and they were gonna have instructors on site to teach me to ski. I laughed out loud. Really? She was calling from the rehab unit... I left using a walker... They really thought I'd be able to ski??? I reminded her that my balance was still off and that I don't think skiing would be a good idea. I asked a little more about the event and then Sandy drove it home by saying Ellen, my favorite Rehab nurse, was going to be there and she recommended me. So, I agreed. I'm full of emotions about it! I remember my attempt at paddle boarding this past summer and I'm nervous for what will happen. I'll be sure to let you all know how it turns out.</div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">It's funny, I've sat at Hilltop the past two winter seasons thinking about how my boys & Darren now have something in common and feeling somewhat sorry for myself that I can't partake. I only let myself mop for a moment and then I remind myself that I don't like to be cold, I can always go on ski/snowboard adventures & have quiet time for myself while they're out shredding the slopes... But now??? We will see what happens. God knows!</span></div>
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Jessica Busshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12503542639546243517noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8563772360445151919.post-54763088247172067482016-02-17T20:44:00.002-09:002016-02-17T20:44:43.963-09:00Flashback<span style="color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;">Monday was a rough day! It was Presidents Day so the boys were off school and Darren was home from work. We ran errands & spent time together. Sounds bad, huh? No, that part was great! I noticed a tightness in my shoulders that wouldn't go away despite several attempts at stretching. I finally took some children's Tylenol (still can't swallow pills) and the boys left for a hour to go skating at the school. I figured I'd just rest and the headache that was lingering would go away. Darren came home with the boys and retreated downstairs to do some work on the basement. All the hammering & drilling made my head buzz. I tried to eat dinner as Darren took Zach to soccer practice. Kadin continued his carefree singing & noise making. When Darren returned home with Zach a while later, I retreated upstairs to take a bath. I took another dose of medicine and crawled into a hot bath hoping my body would relax. I emerged half an hour later feeling relaxed & slightly better. I was still aware of my body's habit of quickly tensing up. I only hoped to make it to bedtime so I could sleep this migraine off completely. No luck... Within about 20 minutes, my head was again aching. I headed back upstairs & laid on my bed. About half an hour later, Darren gathered the boys up for bed. I headed downstairs for an ice pack. I've learned that sleeping with a gel ice pack in the crook of my neck often does the trick & I can relax enough to go to sleep. I went through four ice packs before I was able to fall asleep. Darren had a late hockey game and he toyed with the idea of going & whether I'd be alright, the events of 6 years came flooding back instantly. Six (+) years ago he went to his late hockey game and left a 35 week pregnant sick wife at home with a 2 1/2 year old. Cut to the flash forward version of the story... It was the night he broke his leg in two places. We looked at each other and I said nothing, hoping he wouldn't go b/c I was afraid. Apparently, he was feeling similar and decided not to go. He stayed & replaced my ice packs until I went to sleep. What a great caretaker!!! Love that man more than I could ever say!</span><br />
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During this time of the year, I am overcome by the emotion of all that happened. My sister Jaime kept a log of emails, prayer requests & comments along with a detailed account of my care. Each year, I read this notebook and I'm so thankful. It reminds me of how far I've come. It reminds me the Gods still in the miracle business and I am one of them. I'll be doing my next MRI in the next months and with that comes a multitude of emotions. I pray it still shows all clear. I will be sure to share the results after its all done. Now to wait for the Doctors office to schedule it. I need to start refining my next brain treat for Dr. Kralick.</div>
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This morning I decided to look for beauty instead for waiting for the world to present its over abundance of ugliness and negativity. It seems that everyday the news is filled with horrible things that are happening in our world, state, even neighborhoods. This all makes me so sad and I wonder whats to come. There isn't a day that I am not surprised by what I hear. I am horrified by what is going on in our world. I am reminded that we live in a broken world with broken people. I am not suggesting I am above this, but part of it too. I am reminded that although we are broken, we don't have to live like that. We can take the negative and turn it into a positive. Is it easy? NO? Is it without reservation or fear? Certainly not! Is it without judgement or condemnation? Nope. Can we make a difference? Yes! It only has to start with one. Join me and make a difference in your family, friends, work, school, church, neighborhood, town, state and on. Start small. Tell those around you how much you love and appreciate them. Help someone with their groceries. Pay it forward when you are buying your daily coffee. Say Thank You often, Hold a door open even if you are in a rush. Tell someone they are doing a great job. Surprise people with RAOK (random acts of kindness). That is how we begin to make beauty from ashes. We look for beauty instead of that which makes us sad, upset, disappointed, angered, judgmental,spiteful and hateful.</div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;">He gives beauty for ashes</span><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;">Strength for fear</span><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;">Gladness for mourning</span><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;">Peace for despair</span><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;" /><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;">When sorrow seems to surround you</span><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;">When suffering hangs heavy oer your head</span><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;">Know that tomorrow brings</span><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;">Wholeness and healing</span><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;">God knows your need</span><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;">Just believe what He said</span><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;" /><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: 17px; line-height: 23px;">He gives beauty for ashes</span><br style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); 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<br />Jessica Busshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12503542639546243517noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8563772360445151919.post-90345703956455562852016-01-07T13:44:00.003-09:002016-01-07T13:44:58.410-09:00Now what<span style="color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;">It's been a long while since I posted. I haven't known what to write. When I was in recovery, thoughts or feelings were plentiful, but now.... I'm not sure they'd be worth sharing. I'm in a funny place and I'm trying to figure it out. You see when my boys were home all day, I knew what I had to do. When I had a job before the boys, I knew where all my time would go. When I was in the first years of recovery, I constantly looked for & how to squash challenges. Now... I don't know... I'm kind of lost. I don't say that to elicit pity, it's just how I feel. I don't feel as if I'm doing anything well, I'm just coasting by, hoping I don't fall apart. It's easier I think to not pay attention to how you feel when you are so consumed with chores, tasks, jobs & caring for others. You too easily lose who you are. Well now that I have "ample" time to discover me, I can't seem to find any direction. I know this feeling is impacting all realms of my life. I am noticing my flaws much more & I am unwilling to forgive them. It's a tough place to be emotionally. I'm trying to figure out what's next & I'm expecting someone to just tell me. I mean what could be easier? Have someone say to me.... This is what you were made for & you'll be successful & happy doing it. Ha! Problems solved! If only it were that simple. In addition to my lack of direction, my fear seems so willing to nag at me, reminding me of all the deficits (perceived or not) that prevent me from moving forward. Stupid Brain Tumor, I want to be free from your grasp!</span><br />
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Tomorrow is a big day! Christians celebrate Christ being raised from the dead! Hallelujah! For years I've celebrated Easter for this reason, but I really didn't understand it until 5 years ago. As I laid in that hospital bed, I wanted desperately to be at home. It was the first year that Zach could really participate in the holiday, he could dye eggs, hunt for eggs & really get excited for a basket full of goodies. Instead of enjoying that, I was stuck in a hospital bed. Thankfully Darren, my Mom (Lani) and Mother in Law (Luann) came to the rescue and not only made sure Zach got to experience these fun things, but they also took pictures/video of it for me to enjoy & feel like I was a part of it. During that time and the weeks that followed, I faced the idea of new life. I felt a lot like I was starting over. I had to face so many 'new' things, had to rediscover how to do so many things that had previously been so easy. Just as Christ was giving me a new life through the sacrifice He made on the cross, I faced a new life as a survivor. I had to figure out how to travels the new paths before me. Many thoughts/feelings/impressions were before me making each step harder. As I've learned to walk my new survivor life, I've learned that my Christian walk has aided me in so many ways. I look back on the whole time period often and I see Gods hand print throughout all of it. Above all I give Him Thanks & Praise for loving me enough to give Himself for me and for saving me too.</div>
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Jessica Busshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12503542639546243517noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8563772360445151919.post-72963429124311824612015-03-22T11:15:00.001-08:002015-03-22T11:58:10.960-08:00Firsts Revisited<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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As a result of my Brain Surgery, I was able to experience many 'firsts' again. Its normal to hear from your parents about your first word, first tooth, first step. I didn't realize when I was watching these in Zachary that I'd be re-experiencing these with Kadin, but sometimes life is funny. I started walking again in March 2010 before I was able to leave ICU/CCU and move into Progressive Care and then onto Rehab. This looked quite different that what you probably experience on a daily basis. For me, it entailed a walker, leg weights, an IV pole, oxygen tank & a wheelchair trailing behind.<b> I had quite an entourage</b>. By the time I got to Rehab, I was detached from the IV pole, the oxygen tank, and no longer had a wheelchair following me. I also had my very own fancy walker that could also be used as a chair when I needed a break. It came equipped with a basket and my sister Jaime put a bicycle bell on it to let people know I was coming thru. What a hoot that was! As part of my days in Rehab, I was learning to walk without the assistance of a walker as this was one of my primary goals. On March 19th, 2010. I took my 'first steps' without assistance. My fabulous Physical Therapist was inches in front of me, poised & ready to catch me if I fell as that was quite a possibility. You see me almost do just that in the video & the look of fear & determination I had is unmistakable. I am sure as many of you have followed my recovery or learned of it after the fact, it is quite difficult to imagine just what I was like. This video shows it all. I cannot explain how unnerving it was to learn to do something I had mastered over 20 years before. Its still something that I must work on, but its a constant reminder of all the blessings I have received.<br />
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I wish I could figure out how to add a voice recording to show you the difference in my voice as it is quite dramatic too. My Mom had a voice recording of me saved on her phone of Zach & I when he was potty training. The next saved message was one of me when I was in Rehab. I struggle now to understand myself. I have a hard time figuring out how my family ever understood me. Thankfully, I used sign language & many notebooks (which I still have) to communicate.OH and they were INCREDIBLY patient.<br />
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Blessings.Jessica Busshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12503542639546243517noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8563772360445151919.post-36814095904663967852015-03-21T16:30:00.003-08:002015-03-21T16:30:38.941-08:00Being HonoredBeing in the spotlight is incredibly uncomfortable for me. I am a behind the scenes kinda girl. I think I have always been a bit uneasy being in front of people, but now, I am quite uneasy. Even though I have made giant leaps in my overall recovery, I get stuck seeing that girl that is in the hospital bed that can't walk very well and cannot communicate. I get nervous when I have to call someone or speak in public. I am scared to walk by myself because I am worried people will notice that it isn't in a straight line but more of a stagger. I get flustered easily now and either cannot find the right word in a conversation or I try and speed through the conversation, which I am sure makes it more of a challenge to understand me. I have some fears about how I will be perceived too. I don't want to be looked at with pity, but with friendliness. It is tough. I was asked a few weeks ago by a friend of mine if at the annual Royal Family Kids Camp (RFKC) Night to Remember if she could mention that I was the one who dreamt it. This year would be the 10th year and she wanted to acknowledge my assistance in getting it off the ground. I reluctantly agreed and assumed I could just sit in the back of the auditorium and be a silent witness to an amazing fundraiser for an <b><u>INCREDIBLE</u></b> camp.<br />
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Let's take a step back...10 years ago the first Royal Family Kids Camp was getting set to hold its first week of camp in Alaska. My sister Jaime was on staff as the Dean of Women, a volunteer counselor position who accompanies all the kids and staff (called cousins, uncle/aunt, grandma/grandpa). I was a prayer warrior as I have been each year of the camp's existence. Following camp there is a Welcome Home dinner for the staff & prayer warriors to share how camp went. It was during this Welcome Home dinner that I felt a familiar tug at my heart (Holy Spirit). I listened intently to the stories that were shared and rejoiced for the successful memories & moments these precious children got to take home. I was moved. I remember hearing that it cost $500 per child to attend camp for a week. I knew that this amount of money had to come from somewhere to ensure that many many other children could attend camp the following year. I approached Chris Scott who was and is still the Amazing Director of the camp and suggested the idea of a fundraiser event or a 'Night to Remember' where we could successfully obtain finances for the camp via donation from those in the community. I knew that if people heard about the camp and its mission, they would lend their support. Thankfully, she was just as excited about it as I was. I got hard to work writing letters & contacting restaurants in town seeking dessert donations for a coffee/dessert evening in which we would share the mission of the camp and the success of the previous year. The first year was a tad hairy as most first events are... I remember hand making starfish favors for each person in attendance. I remember email's back and forth to generous businesses in town regarding coffee & desserts they would willingly give us. I remember the Pastry Chef from Orso/Glacier Brewhouse making a dessert special for us and even giving me his baking pans on loan until I could return them the next day. I remember running around town with my sister Jaime collecting desserts the hours before the first Night to Remember was set to debut. I continued on helping with the Night to Remember for the next few years, mostly just providing desserts as others came up with ideas for making it bigger and better. In 2010, I was unable to be a part of the Night to Remember in any way as I had just been released from the hospital after a six week stay following brain surgery to remove a Hemangioblastoma from my brain stem. My recovery was just beginning as I was learning to walk, talk and swallow all over.<br />
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Last night, Chris, paid tribute to me for my vision of Night to Remember. I am humbled that she did this, but I am truly in awe of how this event has morphed into an incredible evening where people can gather together and commit to an exciting and rewarding organization that is radically changing the lives of those it comes in contact with.<br />
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Royal Family Kids Camp is all over the United States. I borrowed this from their website (<a href="http://www.royalfamilykids.org/">www.royalfamilykids.org</a>) so that you could see what they are about. PS They are incredible!<br />
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VISION</h3>
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Every foster child, ages 6-12, experiences a life-changing camp, club and mentor.</div>
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MISSION</h3>
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Create life-changing moments for children of abuse.</div>
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Mobilize the faith community to confront child abuse.</div>
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Launch and sustain camps, clubs and mentors.</div>
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I mentioned the starfish earlier and this story is one that Chris shared with me many years ago when sharing about Royal Family Kids Camp. I hope it blesses you and it helps you to see the parallel between God rescuing us and us rescuing these precious kids.</div>
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A young girl was walking along a beach upon which thousands of starfish had been washed up during a terrible storm. When she came to each starfish, she would pick it up, and throw it back into the ocean. People watched her with amusement.</div>
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She had been doing this for some time when a man approached her and said, “Little girl, why are you doing this? Look at this beach! You can’t save all these starfish. You can’t begin to make a difference!”</div>
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The girl seemed crushed, suddenly deflated. But after a few moments, she bent down, picked up another starfish, and hurled it as far as she could into the ocean. Then she looked up at the man and replied, “Well, I made a difference to that one!”</div>
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The old man looked at the girl inquisitively and thought about what she had done and said. Inspired, he joined the little girl in throwing starfish back into the sea. Soon others joined, and all the starfish were saved.</div>
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Jessica Busshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12503542639546243517noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8563772360445151919.post-28626834903647855592015-03-09T15:07:00.005-08:002015-03-09T15:08:38.549-08:00Mokapu Beach Pictures by Mariah Milan<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">As promised... here is the link to Mariah's pictures...Once I have the originals in my hands, I will be sure to share..until then.. check out this teaser....</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Thank you so much Mariah! You captured a milestone for me! I LOVE pictures and these are fabulous!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">It is hard to think back 5 years and to be so unsure about the future. By March 9th, I was still in ICU. I am thankful my sister Jaime took such diligent notes so that I can go back and reread and remember all that I have to be thankful for. On March 5, 2010, I had completed some PT...I say some because at that point I was only able to walk for 70 feet. I did a Google search on 70 feet to show you that distance and I came up with the length of Rapunzel's hair from the Disney movie Tangled. During the afternoon of the 9th, I also had my stomach tube placed. I still remember this procedure even though I was medicated and I definitely will never forget my first day recovering from it. I am sure my Mom and Darren wont either! Out of the various procedures, tests and assessments that I endured during my 6 week stay, I must say that this was one of the worst. I remember Dr. Peach coming in and telling me about the procedure, I remember my family discussing the importance of a permanent feeding tube, I remember my feelings and fears about what a feeding tube meant for me. </span><br />
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<br />Jessica Busshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12503542639546243517noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8563772360445151919.post-6661393607994636682015-03-08T16:11:00.000-08:002015-03-08T16:11:03.756-08:00Happy 5th Birthday..already?????Okay so I am a little delayed at getting this up.. but, I have a great reason. On the 25th of February, I celebrated my 5th Brain Birthday. I could say there were balloons and cake but nope, we chose to celebrate a different way... with sand, sun and surf. The day after my bellybutton birthday, we headed to Maui for 10 fabulous days. While there; we explored, splashed, laughed, and played. On my actual Brain Birthday, we met up with a wonderful local Maui photographer to capture the moment. I will be sure to share more about this as it becomes available. Here's some photos I took of the fun we had....<br />
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Yesterday, my baby turned 5 years old. I can hardly believe it. The last 5 years have zoomed past. In a few days, I'll be celebrating my 5th Brain Birthday too. What's the saying - time flies when your having fun?!? I'm not sure it's all been fun, but I'm still rejoicing & praising God I here. Some days are tough, some are good, and some are fantastic. I'm still working on acceptance and I highly suspect that I'll always be working on it. I am living a normal life and I'm so thankful for that. I occasionally think back to what I thought life was going to be like and I don't like what I had envisioned. I'm so THANKFUL that isn't my reality, but I'm so aware it could've been.</div>
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Happy Birthday Kadin! Momma loves you so much more than words could say.</div>
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Jessica Busshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12503542639546243517noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8563772360445151919.post-81313081184871971092015-01-05T16:37:00.001-09:002015-01-05T16:37:32.113-09:00Sunflowers<br />
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It's been a long while since my last post. I guess I haven't felt like I've had anything worthwhile to say. Sure thoughts & feelings have ruminated within me, but every time I go to jot it down, I'm struck with a complete blank slate. Not today though...<br />
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Have you ever had times in your life where you are forced to stop & evaluate where you are. No, I'm not talking about driving & getting lost... Although, the idea is the same. I'm talking about that point where you experience something and it causes you to physically stop, catch your breath, and evaluate what just happened. For some it maybe an accident or barely missed accident, surprising news (good or bad), or an unexpected moment. Over the last almost five years, I have had this happen a few times. Usually, I'm left wondering why. Let's see if I can catch you up... A few days ago as I was checking out Facebook, I read a good friends post and was suddenly struck with sad news. I couldn't give it my full attention as friends were coming over for a quick visit. After they left, I quickly jumped back on Facebook to see if what I had read was really true. I again confirmed the sad news and a wave of emotion came over me. A young woman I knew, had died of CANCER. Sarah and I went to high school together. She graduated the year before me. We had a common friend, Molly, so we were acquaintances. A few months before, Molly had told me about Sarah's cancer and I've been praying for her since. I recently befriended her on Facebook so I could follow her & find out how she was doing. I watched as she left state to receive treatments and I noted the big smile she posted on Facebook on a Christmas Day from a hospital bed. I remember her most for her smile! In the last few days as family & friends have posted thoughts on her Facebook page, I was able to get to know her better. I learned about her love for The Lord, her husband, her young daughter, and her family & friends. They commented on her spirit, strength, courage, faith, love & grace! What a beautiful woman! I also learned of her love for sunflowers. During her Celebration of Life Saturday, family & friends were encouraged to bring & lay sunflowers next to her urn. What a beautiful tribute! I looked up the meaning & symbolism for sunflowers on Teleforal and found that sunflowers 'turn to follow the sun' (in Sarah's case, she turned to follow the SON). I also read that their 'open faces symbolize the sun itself, conveying warmth & happiness' and from my understanding Sarah radiated joy and warmth no matter how bad it was. What a true loss!<br />
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You can't help but think about your own mortality when something like this happens. As I watched Sarah's husband, daughter & family file into the front rows on the Church, I couldn't help but think how close Darren & my boys came to that. I selfishly am thankful I'm still here. I believe God has a purpose in all things but sometimes is hard to understand... This is one of them. Above all it reminded me of a few things: treasure those we have, tell others how you feel about them, live like it's your last day.<br />
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RIP Sarah - Cancer Sucks!!!!<br />
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<b><u>No Evidence of Tumor!!!!</u></b><br />
<br />Just got the great news that my MRI looks stable (same as last year) AND I don't have to come back until 2016!!!!! Commence Happy Dance!!! Darren & Kadin came with me to my MRI results appointment and Candace (PA) & Dr. Kralick couldn't believe my baby was so big. The last time they same him, he was only a few weeks old. Now he's four!<br />
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probably on Amazon. Oh the fun I have!<br /><br />It's always great to see Dr.
Kralick! I even remembered to have Darren take a picture as the only one I have is
one of my first few visits where I still look like I was run over by a
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<br />The news still seems surreal. I guess I always approached the possibility of recurrence as not possible... I'm not sure it was denial it could happen or just confident I was done with this chapter. Could anything appear again? Well, I guess anythings possible, but
I don't thinks it's very probable. Instead of focusing on that, I think I'd
rather focus on my family!<br /><br />Thank you all for your continued prayers &
support. I'm not 100%, but I am doing quite well! Thank you God!!!!<br />
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Blessings.Jessica Busshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12503542639546243517noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8563772360445151919.post-72188452286415652192014-03-10T16:29:00.000-08:002014-03-10T16:29:44.133-08:00milestonesAnother milestone has been reached! Praise God!!! Putting this 15 month possible
recovery zone to shame! I over 4 years!!!!! Yesterday, we found a snowboard for Zach at Toys R Us.
We headed out to give it a whirl at the sledding hill at our Elementary school.
I planned to bring the inner tube & to ride it to the bottom of the hill
& take video of Zach's first tries on the board. After climbing up the
easier side with Darren's arm assist, I lined up for my intended first &
only ride down the hill. I say only because that hill has been a fear of mine
for the past few years. I have always had to have Darren's assist up to the top
using the easier side, so I thought that there was <b>no way</b> I'd make it up the
sledding hill. I climbed onto the tube & Kadin hoped on top. We blasted
down the hill, Kadin screamed in delight! When we finally came to a stop, I
secretly fretted about getting back across the field to the bottom of the hill.
Before I even got a chance to let my fear & worry set in, Kadin jumped up
and said 'come on Momma, let's go again!' How could I say no to that? I
breathed deep, looked at the hill and started up. I confirmed my fear & the
potential outcome : Falling - and then I thought, just try!!! So I did! Guess
what, <b>I MADE IT</b>! Wahoo!!! Victory! My boys congratulated me at the top of the
hill. Over the rest of the time there I slid & climbed up the hill with
both my boys. Victory for sure!!! <b>Praise God!</b> I stumbled once when I lost my
focus, but I recovered without falling backward down the hill. My sweet boy
Zach was instantly by my side seeing if he could help - what a treasure he is! I
told him ' no, thank you, Momma had to do this on her own.' I'm not sure he
understood that, but he graciously stepped aside. It was a big afternoon!!!
Zach did awesome at his first tries snowboarding. He got up all the way....
Wahoo!<br /><br />So beyond blessed to be here for this & to finally feel part
of it. I don't think I've totally conquered that hill in the winter because
snow can be so diverse depending on the weather, but I will try
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<br />Jessica Busshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12503542639546243517noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8563772360445151919.post-88233164420008919752014-03-01T14:01:00.003-09:002014-03-01T14:01:48.901-09:00Hooray<br />
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Today was the ceremonial start of the Iditarod and that stirs up so many emotions for me. I remember going downtown as a kid and watching the mushers & dogs. You could feel the excitement in the air. The mushers hustled around their sleds double checking that every dog was securely in their harness. Dogs were jumping, panting, barking, ready to go. For years, I didn't give much attention to The Last Great Race, but I couldn't help but pay attention four years ago. I was in ICU at Alaska Regional and a day or so before the start of the Iditarod Nurse Shamese decided I needed a room with a better view. The morning of the Iditarod my room starting buzzing with family & nurses' anxious to see the teams. I so longed to be out of that hospital bed and out in the cold, cheering on the dogs. Two years after that day, I was on the sidelines cheering the teams on as they headed out of town. Hooray for getting better!!!Jessica Busshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12503542639546243517noreply@blogger.com0